In the last post I quoted from a short story--"In The Bronx"--that Paul said he was reading when he was interviewed by journalist Maureen Cleave for an article she was writing. The paragraph in the short story after the one I quoted I think is also indicative of Paul's state of mind at the time:
"I walked wobbly with my head limp and I did not know why, but I walked and there was fear in me. I did not know what was good or bad. I did not know my mother, my brother, or my father. No one seemed to be real. Everyone seemed to be acting a part in a play. I did not understand the reason why life must be such a mystery."
In the short story, it was the boy's state of mind. For Paul, I believe it was a coerced state of mind.